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| I first wanted to just say..."we had a good run". I'm so sad, not about anything just the simple fact that things have come and gone and now here we are...(here I am) Alone....I feel so alone. I was talking to Dave about it earlier....we just reminisced about this past year...we both can just recall the first day we moved in. How we had so much to be thankful for how there were so much things we were all planning to do. I remember when I talked to Nevin the other year and he said he wanted to come to ATS...since then I began to look and pray for a place. God answered....and things worked out. So Nevin, Shawn, Nhia, Dave, and me moved in. I was so happy and I thought to myself, finally a place we can call our own. I wanted to settle in...so i bought all sorts of stuff to settle down and keep everyone happy. Furniture, bean bags, even a big screen TV. I thought to myself, over the summer, we'll not need a storage, we'll have our place! COMPLETELY WRONG...i'm soo sad
Nevin and Shawn just said the place was too much ....in the end i feel so much lack of disclosure!....didn't even get to properly see them off...THIS is why I hate GOODBYES....now this house is so lonely and quiet...I can remember just walking in and having random people in the house....it felt good. Dave said one of the best things for him was when he was having the worst days at work he would come home and there would be people in the house, just sitting around...i know that feeling....its FAMILY...I love and miss my family....i miss you guys so much. Linda, you were the last of the girls to leave and i so did not want you to go. It felt like swallowing a knife down my stomach. I hate seeing people leave because in a sense, I feel so abandoned....i think maybe memories from Iraq....some of these feelings feel similar....whats going on inside of me??? This house was just a place that was opened to everyone to hang out and have bible studies...or cook. You guys know me, i'm an extravert, so I love being around you guys, no matter what I may say. This is nothing against Nev or Shawn, just i really wanted things to work out...i was planning for like 4 years or so...and even wanted to stay here after college. Just so sad that things are this way....I know family will be here and you guys will come back, but I just simply hate being the last to leave. And as it turns out, i think it'll be exactly that.....tou, ben, and dave them will be leaving this weekend too...*sigh*...sooo saddd...!!!
I JUST HATE SAYING GOODBYES!!!! This house is so quiet right now and so lonely...and it's only 1:20 am!...
SPECIAL MEMORIES
-first nights, me and Nevin walked through the house and prayed for EVERY room specifically
-Buying furniture for the house at IKEA!
-Cook Outs and BBQ!
-Vollyeball in the backyard
-The two rowdy dogs that chased Paia
-BIBLE STUDIES!
  
-Surprise Parties
-almost stabbing dave in the kitchen
-Bowing with the guys on the WII
-Late TV nights
-Nhia moving out, and Charles moving in
-flooding of the bathroom
-Costume parties
-Hosting guests i didn't know!
-House meetings
-Cleaning house
-packing away all my stuff...and my memories...
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| Okay so Yesterday I received my new memory foam bedding topper. Wow it was amazing but I already ordered a complete memory foam bed...woot woot...i cannot wait for it to get here on Tue. This weekend I got a lot of work to do. 1 Sermon, 1 essay, 1 book, report, and 1 journal....woot...going to be busy. Oh also got my 4 weekly readings ... Hmm Well good news is that I changed my fish tank today, so thats a bit of relief. I'm thinking about selling my MACBOOK PRO...only to get the NEWer one...coming up this semester I still face the decision of either continuing to ATS, back to the Marines for another 5 years because they offered me 40k plus other bonuses, but if i do it it'll be active/overseas, or jump straight into ministries and work in the church. Also, been snowboarding but now spring is here i'm looking to get back into the Paintballing scene....*sigh* haha so many things....woot woot i'm tired of thinking for now...heres a picture for you guys.....
My Fish!
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| So i had a dream last night. We were at this huge secret event place and to get there we had to go through alot of underground subways and tunnels. We were to meet the other half of our group there. I was the first one in our party and when i got there i saw a bunch of stuff. It was supposed to be an information event but they had lots of entertainment too such as a rollercoaster / waterslide. We were riding the rollercoaster and I believe it was TJ or Charles that was sitting in front of me but they fell out of the rollercoaster then suddenly the entire thing changed into a jungle gym and we were jumping around. I ran into Jackie Chan but he also was Bruce Lee. He decided to teach me kung fu?! haha it was super awsome. Then i saw a bunch of the Nyack sports girls and they all kept coming up to me to sympathize for my sister because of her and ashley. Some of these girls i didn't even know but only saw around campus. Anyway, then i woke up.
*side note* I got a bunch of programs for my MAC. I was excited at first but realized that I may not even use half of these. So i'm going to make it intentional to use them. I got a great connection because i roughly caculated a few of them and it was well over 2,000.00. Glad I didn't pay that much though...
Anyway, i'm having a rough morning...a rough month actually. Been hurting physically...(winter) financially, and spiritually. *sigh* moments like these remind me of how God loves me so. Even through this He is here for me. I bring my struggles to His feet. When I forget, He sends me a reminder. Wether it be through the words or gestures of a friend or just a gentle whisper as I lie down, my Abba reminds me of His works in my life. Who He has called me to be, and how HE, not I, but HE...will get me there. So Humbly I'll stand and Pridefully I'll crawl to be in His presences.
-Noch
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Well its great to be back on Xanga...i dont' come on here much anymore but yes....so I did get my Samsung 46in HD LCD...woot! it adds a amazing touch to the house....i got a up convert hd dvd player but i think i'm going to pick up a true HD dvd player on black friday...and I also really want a good sound system...(ORB audio) but we'll see what happens with that. My macbook Pro should be here soon....and I'm currently rebuilding my desktop computer so thats where my money is going for now....BTW my computer will be nothing short of AMAZING!!! ....then I think i will turn my eyes to work on my Honda...turbo-charge?! yeah probably, but I have to rebuild the block before that....(this is a secret but it Will be a 10 sec car, with the setup i got in mind....and I think its financially possible...woot)
Okay anyway, enough with this materialistic stuff. So I preached my official second sermon the other day and all i can say is wow....God is amazing....even though i'm lazy and procrastinate.... He has come through for me yet again....the sermon went really smooth and even though i messed up and said the word "point" once....(thats a no no) it didn't distract me or mess me up. I actually got it recorded....hope you guys all make it to my next sermon....hehe till then I'll be praying for you....oh one last thing...I'm working on a little side project....my electric guitar setup...but that seems to be a bit of a stretch....just need the Fender Blues Jr amp and a few pedals, nothing fancy....anyway I gotta get back to work....later everyone!!!
NO-C-H
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| ARgh....I'm so sick! I really don't remember being this sick since highschool. *sigh* i'm supposed to go to the city today but I don't think I will because I don't want to get worst. Still been going to bed at 4-5 in the morning....not good. But last night I decided to go bed early woot i was soo happy i was in bed by 2:30....woot woot! Anyway, on other news, I'm planning on getting a MACBOOK Pro or mabe just a Macbook. Also i can't wait till This Wed. as I'll be getting a new piece of furniture for our house...
which i'm super excited for ....haha i love furnishing out house...oh yeah and I'm going to be getting a 46 in LCD T.V. for our house too...Well nough said for today I must go do some homework....
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